Thursday, 6 February 2014

Time to Talk

Taking inspiration from the Time to Talk campaign and following on from my good friend, here is a brief rundown of my own mental health issues;

I've always suffered anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember because I was bullied very badly throughout my school life because I didn't "fit in". There were other influencing factors from a younger age that I'm not ready nor willing to discuss publicly but I started to self harm 'consciously' from the age of 13. However, according to various sources I've been causing myself harm from as young as 2.

I moved to London in 2005 and was in a domestically violent relationship for 18 months. When this ended I went on a booze and cocaine bender for 2 weeks in Chester and when I returned to London that's when my depression hit. Since then I've been in and out of therapy and prescribed various medications from anti depressants, beta blockers and sleeping pills. I've been given several diagnoses from Bipolar, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalised Anxiety Disorder, Insomnia, Sleep Paralysis and once I was told I had Teenage Angst...!

I am now neither seeing a psychiatrist nor am I medicated. I had a 6 month cut free period but had a major relapse after a lot of things happened. Since my relapse I have learned to not be ashamed of my cutting and even go as far as wearing shorts occasionally outside the house.

For a long time I was ashamed of my mental health issues. I felt dirty and like perhaps it was my own fault. Now I've educated myself better I know that it's society that is wrong when it comes to mental health.

Two of my oldest and closest friends also have the same mental health issues as me and I wouldn't change either one of them for all the sanity in the world!!

It's time to change the stigma surrounding mental health and at change can start with YOU accepting my story.